KONTROLL

Kontroll was just as amazing the second time seeing it as the first. It felt so much shorter the second time, and less heavy since I already had an idea of what I thought everything meant. I mean, the feeling that I've been living in the subway system for a week still made me go crazy, but it was less crazy since I've felt it once before. I'm beginning to believe my own theory of who the pusher is more and more, that the pusher is the pain growing inside each person. That pain is what grows into the pusher that makes them jump. The only two things that keep me from fully backing this theory up is the fact that on tape Bootsie was obviously pushed and that a lot of the people being pushed looked so shocked by the pushing. They didn't look like they've had this thing growing in them for so long that it's grown strong enough to push them into their death. What I love so much about trying to figure this movie out is that I have thought of so many theories for each piece of symbolism myself, and I can seem to back up most of them somehow. Then on top of that I can back up and understand all the other theories people have been giving out. I love that after backing up one theory and finally thinking I've got it, another one comes up and all my thoughts unravel again and I have to put everything back together again. There are so many ways of looking at Kontroll, and beyond beautiful cinematography, funny lines, and great acting, that is what is so amazing about this film.