Junior Year

The last year of grades that gets sent into colleges. SAT scores. Final GPAs. Decisions, decisions, decisions. Junior fucking year.

Ironic that the girl who could tell you exactly what she wanted and how she was going to get it in fifth grade no longer knows. It's not a matter of so many options being in front of me. It's a matter of me becoming to realistic for my own good; I've become so realistic that my idea of realistic is closer to plain old pessimistic. It sounds terribly corny and stupid, but everything went south when I started believing that I couldn't be what I wanted to be.

Seems like the joke was on me. I can be whatever I want to be, and I just lost three months of the most important year of my high school career trying to re-learn that I could be whatever I want to be (something I knew once before).

I think it's how close college is, how close the "real world" is, to me that is making me go crazy. The best advice I can give to any freshman and sophomore is to take care of yourself academically, creatively, and socially those first two years of high school. When you're a junior, don't get caught up in being a junior. Realize that you were doing fine all through out high school and junior year is not that much different from what you've already done. If you let junior year become this mystical force you're just going to screw yourself over.

Getting Shit Done

The level of productivity is relative. "Productive" depends on you're level of understanding and expertise on whatever you're working on. So when comparing two people one person finishes something in one day but it takes another person a week to do the same task. The first person has more experience doing this thing than the second person has. The first person finished the task and just takes a break for the rest of the week. The second person fished the task days later, but has been constantly working on it. The first person wasn't productive. The second person was.

Some of my friends are just plain old stupid. But what they don't have in intelligence they make up for with hard work. What some one needs to be brilliant is a mix between intelligence and hard work. You may be born with the thought process of a genius, but without hard work no one in the world is going to know that but you. I mean, maybe it was easy for people in the 1800s to get themselves out there just on their smarts, but in todays dog eat dog world everyone has the opportunity to learn. Even the worst public schools out there could help bring out a brilliant person. It's about what the brilliant person puts into school. If he puts in a lot of work, he gets out a big reward.

Do these two paragraphs seem to relate to eachother? If not, sorry. Just thinking through blog.